

how to:being scared isn't at all like being nervous. it is opening the refrigerator door at three am, closing it. falling asleep and not realising you have woken up. wanting to disappear completely, and realise you could probably do it if you tried hard enough; making yourself stuck in your own mind. it is realising you could tell all your secrets to every soul in the world, and in the end it is still only you, sitting in that room and waiting. alone.how to:
everything becomes insignificant. any feelings you may have felt before. you don't even remember anymore why you were sprawled on the kitchen floor that night, drunk and crying. mumbling s


i'm choking.i am sitting with smoking nerves andi'm choking.
frayed circuit wires, everything i don't
know knotting together for me to choke
on.
if there is a door, i can't find it.
if there is an answer, i'm unaware.
instead i am falling to my knees and
crawling under the smoke, eyes watering
and knuckles bleeding. no closer to the end
than when i had begun.
if i had the courage, i'd crack open your ribs and get the answer for myself. if i was brave,
i'd simply reach over and pinch the truth from
your tongue.
or i'd just tie my heart to the ra


fuck yeah, halloween"you look like hell."fuck yeah, halloween
"that's because i am hell."
"right. what's wrong?"
"well, i am coughing and it tastes like blood- it's halloween so i don't mind too much, i get to pretend i'm a vampire; i am very tired, i realised that my eyebrows are uneven, and my heart is made of styrofoam- of all materials!"
"oh, shit. that...wow. are you going to the doctor's?"
"for what?"
"the cough, you know?"
"isn't it more pressing that my heart, my damned heart is made of styrofoam? God, i've always loved digging my nails into those styrofoam cups, loved the feeling of
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\"If there were in the world today any large number of people who desired their own happiness more than they desired the unhappiness of others, we could have paradise in a few years.\"~Bertrand Russell
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Gregor Schlierenzauer.
^^ a lovely picture of you from our shoot. I will prolly make more prints, but I won't develope all of them simply because of photo paper and time issues. But it's all good because some didn't turn out in focus and what not so yay!
Check this one out =]
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to do list:
be spontaneous!
Nicee =]
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I found this =]
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and it made me smile so wide I almost lost conciousness in my face. I don't think we need that corsett >_< but I wanna do something along the lines of the same kind of reflection. You looking back and you looking at you (evily) or maybe it can be sad? Who knows!! This is gonna be so fun!!
ok, I'm done now.
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"If you give a man a fish, you feed him one meal. If you teach a man to fish, you feed him for a lifetime."~Catch and Release
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